I haven’t really thought this post through completely and, warning, it might get a little complain-y. Lately, I’ve been having this feeling that I have nothing to wear. Nothing feels right, nothing makes me feel cute or sexy or like what I have on is flattering. It all just feels blah and totally unspecial. A big part of it is that my body has changed a lot. I spent all winter and spring training and working out. Now that I’ve sat on my butt for 13 weeks with a broken leg, I’ve gotten soft. I definitely have a tummy pooch and only 2 pairs of my jeans fit me now. After working so hard all winter, this just adds one more frustration on top of dealing with a broken leg.
Things don’t fit the same way, nor do they look the same. This makes getting dressed and (as a result) feeling confident in what I’m wearing and how I look a bit difficult. These days it takes at least 30 minutes for me to pick something to wear. By the end of that process, there’s a pile of discarded clothes on every surface of our bedroom. Things that don’t fit my arms, that make me feel too wide in the shoulders, too much like a pregnant lady, etc etc. It’s a really uncomfortable, borderline self-abusive process.
I’ve also noticed that many of my ‘go-to’ pieces are not working for me these days, again because of the leg. The jeans that I always feel confident wearing? Yeah, I can’t get them on right now. My oversized flowy white peasant top? It rides up when I use my crutches, showing my belly to everyone.
I also believe that this feeling of ‘nothing to wear’ stems from how frequently I look at fashion trends. Then it’s coupled with this feeling of wanting to stay current and on top of the trends… and then all of a sudden I don’t have a true personal style! When I look at the pieces hanging in my closet, I often wonder what I was thinking when I got them. It’s like a conversation between me and too many grandma’s-couch-inspired prints. Or with the pair of overalls that don’t go with any of the tops I own. Seriously, I can list examples like this for days.
As my leg gets better (please?), I am daydreaming about getting my butt back into the gym and getting back into shape. But I also really want to be able to look cute again and soon. I’m tired of feeling frumpy. Recently I went on a rampage and ordered a ton of stuff online… then ended up returning all but one dress. Everything was totally off. I hated the fit, the fabrics, the colors, everything. So now I’ve moved onto trying those trendy online style box things. If you watched my Instagram Stories, I recently tried Stitchfix and it was terrrrrible. I was so disappointed. But I heard from a few of you that Trunk Club really worked for you, so I’ve signed up for that and was definitely way more impressed. This might be a really good way for me to get inspired with my wardrobe in the future and step out of my comfort zone. I posted my results on Instagram Stories and will continue to keep you posted as I try Trunk Club more.
Tell me, have you ever felt like this before? What did you do? I’d really love any suggestions!
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